Preparing for a month of singledom

Azreal leaves for his boys trip to Europe in two weeks. I’m not particularly looking forward to being left on my own for a whole month, although it will force me to get out more and spend time with my friends that normally I only see once in a while. I also think I will appreciate the amount of stuff he does around the house a lot more once I get a taste of doing it for myself for a month!

This weekend we did quite a lot of housework and while I spent many hours washing, vacuuming, mopping and scrubbing, he certainly pulled his weight AND still cooked dinner at the end of the day. I was exhausted after a day of cleaning and some one-on-one boxing training and I couldn’t face cooking dinner yet during the week Azreal spends all day working in a manual labour job, often does some cleaning or grocery shopping and most nights cooks dinner as well. While he’s away I will have to do the shopping, cleaning and cooking for myself. Funny how I used to do that for myself anyway when I was single and before we moved in together and it was no big deal but now that I’m facing it again it seems so daunting.

I have a few things planned to keep me occupied while he’s away. I’ll be catching up with friends on the weekends (and of course, cleaning and grocery shopping!). But Azreal has stocked up his computer with some goodies for me like Half Life 2 and Crysis to keep me entertained. We’re very much an insulated couple, spending most of our spare time together (mostly at home). When we do go out it’s usually in a small group and rarely apart from each other. We do have separate friends but generally we prefer each other’s company. And even as individuals we tend to be happy keeping to ourselves – playing games, reading books, going for walks.

I keep saying to myself that this time alone will be really good for me, I will grow as an individual and regain that individuality that I had before Azreal and I got together. And it will be good for us as a couple to learn to communicate better and perhaps not take each other for granted so much. But I will miss him so much! And why does it have to be in winter when I need his warm hugs so much?

I can’t wait for him to come home and we can spend our week at the Gold Coast.